CountRaven: My story begins now...

Lucas led her to a huge forest,Taylor still could not believe how she did came to this green paradise. Flowers bloom,rich green fields everywhere,looks like the winter has not affected the plants at all.

Taylor:"Why are the roses still alive and so so..lively, don't they wither?

Lucas:" ahh,i forgot to tell you, nothing dies in here, everyone thats living don't grow old,even flowers bloom forever. There is only peace and joy. No pain, no sickness and basically no sufferings.Its like heaven!!

Taylor:"no more tears too?

Lucas:" well there is,but its tears of joy. Everyone is happy and easily satisfied here.Everybody loves everybody.Unlike the world i used to live in,i was living in such pain in your world.Things are simple here.

They sat down on the grass,silence everywhere,they kept quiet and just stare at the stars up in the dark sky.Words cannot describe what they are both feeling inside,the connection between the 2 is so close,its as though they known each other for a very long time.It was cold,so they both cuddled,soon,she falls asleep in his arms.Lucas could'nt sleep at all,he was looking at her,funny how the way she sleeps with a grin on her face.He finds that very cute,could'nt help but kept admiring her charming sweet smile.

After they woke up, to her surprise they were surrounded by little elves and fairies, and the animals, all gathered around. Rabits and squrriels talking with the elves in human language. While she is still calming herself down that the fact that animals could talk, everyone was cheering and looks like they're celebrating something.

Thomas the elf:" Good morning Lucas!! i see you have a compainion after so long. You 2 look so cute together, care to join us for the tea party?We've got lots of hot pan cakes and honey milk too.There's plenty for you 2.

Lucas:' Haha you all really gave her a surprise. Well my fellow mates, this is Taylor, my new found friend.Taylor meet my friends,they are the adorable elves and fairies, and not to forget my beloved creatures of the forest.They the most loving beings u can find, dont worry,they would never harm anyone.

Their breakfast was amazing,pancakes,milk,chocolate pudding,fruit salad,cupcakes and even brownies.Anything that you call desserts they have it.

Taylor:" wow you guys eats that much for breakfast? like everyday? how come you don't grow fat?

Wanda the fairy:" Everyone is pretty and cute,i thinks its got to do with the no sufferings,we just looks good everyday no matter how much we ate. SO don't worry bout your weight. Just be happy.

Taylor:" wow IT IS HEAVEN!! I can live with that.hahaha.i can even have the cute animals be my soul mate,wow,i could have lot of friends here.

Lucas:" And you said u would miss your world,hahahaha Now u know why i stayed here for decades.

Taylor:' I love here, but what about my mum.She's the only person i loves.i cant just leave her like that.Please bring me back later, i gotta go back to her.

Lucas:' I would miss you, but okay,i will,and look at your cat,he's really enjoying himself.

Everyone stared at tipsy, he was cuddling with another sassy cat. Everyone laughed and teased him,the world have given tipsy the ability to talk too..

Tipsy:" cant we stay longer?? Please..pretty please..i promise i'll not scratch your dresses anymore.

Taylor:" OH so now you can talk, And wait a mintue,it was you who ruined my dress!!And i thought the rats bite it,oh you little..

Lucas laughed at stared at Taylor with such amusement.

Taylor:" Ok fine..we'll stay alittle longer,when we're back, you better stay away from my closet..

~Secret Garden~

chapter 2

Taylor felt so helpless,then she heard a very familiar sound,getting closer,and closer. To her surprise,it was Tipsy that's meowing to her,finally a companion,and Taylor was too happy to figure how the hell did she followed her here.She cuddled Tipsy in her arms so tight,nearly choked her.Still,it seems impossible to get out,the night is getting darker,mist everywhere, she feel like giving up,just wanna lay somewhere and sleep.

She feels its pointless wandering in the dark,so she laid down with tipsy in her arm,hoping she can sleep the nite away,and maybe when the sun is up,she can find her way back.She close her eyes,trying to sleep,but something scared the hell out of her. She hears foot steps, sounds of sticks cracking,someone is coming closer, "could it be a wolf?" she thought to herself."Oh please don't hurt me, don't hurt tipsy"she shouted at that misty figure.

That creature stopped,and speak to her in a gentle tone"Don't worry, im not gonna harm you,Im Count Lucas,who are you? And how did u get here?"
Taylor was shocked," OH MY GOD!!GHOST!!" screamed Taylor.

Count Lucas:"Shhhhh! speak softly, you would wake everyone up,calm down lady,Im not dead,im alive,i can live forever."

Taylor:" Don't lie!! I don't believe you,you must be a ghost,how is it possible for you to still look so young,DON'T COME NEAR ME."she shouted.

Lucas:"haha.I told ya,i can live forever here,i would not age of cause,please don't be afraid of me,if im dead,would my hands be warm?

Lucas walked over and hold her hand,Taylor just closed her eyes,dare not look at him directly.His hands were so warm,Taylor opened her eyes, can't help but looked into his charming blue eyes. She find it so unbelievable,how is it possible, he looked like he is in his 20s,how did he gain immortality.

Taylor stared at him with her eyes wide open,"...o...k, i believe you,im sorry,i sneaked into your house,and read your diary,i thought you must be really cold out there,i wanted to give you my coat.Looks like you're warm enough.Im sorry anyway."

Lucas laughed,:" Oh my, there's never been any human that's been so nice to me,you're the 1st,don't worry,you already warm me enough with your heart.Im so honoured."

He bowed to her, and smiled back to her with such grace, so gentlemen, so lovely.She felt so attracted to him once again,those eyes back in the portrait, were so lonely,so needy. But now she could feel he is so much happier,could it be the world he spoke of? thought taylor.

Taylor:" can you show me to your "world",i promise, it would be our secret,i would not tell anyone,the secret is between you & me."

Lucas:" Don't you have friends & family outside?Im afraid if you come with me, you would be missing them in no time, are you sure? You would fall in love with it once you stepped in.

Taylor:" I just want to have a peek at the perfect world u speak of,rest assure its just for a while,my mum is waiting for me, i would go back after i seen enough.please."

Lucas smiled:" How can i reject you? im honoured to have you as my companion,you are such an angel.But please don't break the promise, or i would destroy the passage way myself.I shall not let anyone harm my friends."

Lucas held her hand,and led her to a big oak tree, it looked so giantic. He placed his palm against the tree,and wispered softly to the tree,like some spells.Then they stepped back, a door like shaped beggin to appear on the surface of the tree trunk. He pushed the door, and the inside is so dark like a tunnel.

They walked in, with big steps, and him leading the way.

~Secret Garden~

chapter one

Once upon a time, there lives a young lady living in a small town.Her name was taylor,she was the fairest girl in town,her beauty was outstanding. Such a living goddess,such perfectness,yet a humble heart she has.

Every girl is jealous of her beauty, so no one ever praised her,everyone just enjoyed putting her down.She always thought she was not good enough,she don't deserve anything that's good.
So she lives a humble life, with her mother, a widow.Taylor wished she could always remember how her father looked like,always afriad as time goes by,the memory of him would only fade away in time.Life was never fair for young Taylor, her father died on christmas day, when she was 10.

Poor Mister Smith, Taylor's father, he was on his way back from getting the gifts for his wife and Taylor, but he was attacked by a wolf.That was the coldest winter taylor can remember.
Deep in her heart, she wished for a friend, a friend to talk to,someone that would love her for the person she is, not by her looks.Many men tried to persue her,but all rejected,because of their hidden agenda.They don't love her,they just want to have her,like owning the best girl in town.

All she has, was her cat, little tipsy,that furry snow white persian cat. That fat cat was her father's, it was given its name because when its sleepy,it'll walk like a drunkard.

Right at the end of the town,the big mansion that nobody dares speak of,they said it was haunted.
20 years ago,the owner of the house,Count Lucas,lived there,then 1 day he went missing. He was nowhere to be found, no one seen him left the house. Rumour has it,that he was killed by his butler, and buried alive in the big garden behind the mansion.The house soon became the forbbiden house,the unholy place that no 1 dares come near.

Taylor always walked to the house,just to peek in, cause somehow,she feels that she can relate to the mansion, she thinks she belongs there somehow. Just like the house, she is not liked by anyone, so isolated.

Finally on this christmas night,where every1 is enjoying the christmas moments at home. Taylor decided she wants to explore that big mansion, she been dying to find out the secrets in it,her curiousity is killing her.Sneak out of bed, running out on street without any1 notice is easy, everyone else is too busy celebrating.Suprisingly,the giant gate of the big mansion was not locked but wide open,like it awaiting for her arrival.

Without any effort,she easily went inside the house, the doors are wide open too. She lighted up the candle on the small table cover with dust. Slowly she walks up the stairs through the hall way, she can't help but keep staring at the portrait of count Lucus. His blue eyes,so charming,yet seems so lonely. Like telling her,he need a friend too,he needs to be loved.She found his bedroom, and saw his dairy lying on his table,its rude,but she can't help it,but start reading it.

Seems like Lucas was insane, he speak of imaginery being he saw in his garden, he said his friends lived in his garden. He rather stay there and live forever,than to live in the cruel reality.
He believed there's another world existing in there, a secret passage way that only he knows.No one else is to find out, human would only harm the magical creatures, and he decided to live there forever.

Taylor felt so sad,she thought to herself " what a poor men,he must have felt so unwanted that he rather live in his dreams, for so long, he must have died in his own garden,his fantasy had drived him to his grave." She feels she has to find his body,she wants to give him her coat, to give him some warmth,letting him know someone cares.Hoping he could rest in peace.

She starts finding her way to the back of the mansion. Its been ages,now the garden are all covered with weeds, so dark, so eriee, she swallowed, and pick up her guts to step in.The bushes of roses,all withered in this cold winter.Not a living plant she can find inside, just dead bushes and trees with no leaves. Further she steps, the bigger it seems, that garden do look bigger from the inside, she looked back and everywhere around her looked the same, now where is the way back. She got lost, and kept moving forward, only find herself trapped in.

oh my god! time flies when you least notice it, christmas is at the corner,everything's happening so fast.i never realise 2008 is sliping away. im getting older,what do i have so far, a stable job, and my stable performance at work. Not much achivements,i only hope, in the near future,if im lucky, and given the chance to be a supervisor,i wish so badly,i can be stationed at UTB or UHM.

The 2 outlets, that i had the most memorable, and happiest times of my mundane working life. Its where it all started,my 1st step,the place i knew all my frens(BROY YAN MEI SIEW ZHEN)!!!

Everytime,when im free,all these memories keep coming back to me, sometimes i wished i never had tat fight wif yan mei.How would things happen differently,if i never made that chioce. That could only be in my thoughts, in life there can never be a second chance, or a correction.Words can't be taken back,actions taken and the consequences we would have to face.

Yan mei gave a really nice braclet,i cant take back the hurt i caused on our friendship,but least i could do, is to show her im wearing the gift everyday,never a day,i would forget the times we had.im sorry for being so stupid in the past. I cant go back, so all i can do, is to look forward to the future,preventing myself from losing any1 of my frens.

Sometimes i hate to get to close with people,cuase the closer i get, the more im afraid they would leave me.
Everyone is selfish,who doesnt like the idea to have your beloved frens by yourself all the time.I never can handle the truth that,they have their families and own frens too,everyone needs their spaces.
Im trying very hard,not to cling on to them,thats why im always expecting so much from myself.I must be strong,i must able to take care of myself.
I want to be independent, every1 tot i am, but only a few can sense my insercurity,i am very afraid to be alone.

why do i turn on that music so loud, because,im afriad of the silence too.
No sounds,no voices,no one is around,total isolation,thats the scariest thing that could happen to me.I cant help it at all that i sticks to the women i love, i can stick to my girl fren all day. Thats why im so afriad to have a r/s.I don't want to be my lover's burden,im trying very hard not to be. Why is it so hard..all the pain,all the utter feeling of its getting harder to breath.why? is it just me?

I need you by my side so much,why did you have to go...
Do you think of me sometimes?
like i always did,so vividly.
I need your smile,to warm my heart
i need your voice to calm me down,
i wish you're here to hold my hand,
tell me you'll stay,
at least for me,don't go
tell me what you really feel about me.
do you feel the way i do
im so tired of guessing
don't leave me figuring on my own.
please make it easier for me.
If i come closer
would you go further?
are you scared of me?
give me a sign,my love

Roses red,roses charms,
draw me closer with your beauty,
You have thorns,I can't see,
danger lies within,
still,i keep going,
did i hesitate? No i did not,
Weeds are green and stubborn,
slow me down,blocks my way,
they keep talking,keep coming,
warnings of good intentions,
doing what they can,to save me from pain,
but what do i care?
roses keep wispering her tender words,
got me like a desperate fool,
step and cut,i turn them down,
pushing them away,
in times,passion fade away,
once i got myself cuts and wounds.
roses withers,left me with my pain alone
turn back to see,
weeds looking my way,with open arms,
welcoming back a morseful friend,
is it too late to regret? i ask
silence surrounded me,
i fall into the comfort of their arms,
crying,while they answered,
its never too late for you my friend.

This is for YOU ALL my friends!! esp weijie! and of cos u BROY!I spend alot of times thinking bout the friends i have,and what i did to them, how u you guys had showered me with tolerance and patience!Just so you know,broy time wld not kill our friendship,it would only be stronger, Take care dear broy..think for yourself sometimes! its ok to pamper yourself! Stop feeling guilty to have pleasure..
Weijie,i own you alot!!U are the most faithful friend i ever have! thank you for what you've done for me all this time.i would Use the time i have in my life to repay your unselfish kindness..no 1 can ever replace you, don't worry