I love today,everything feels so great bout today,i felt refresh,and ready to work,i missed work actually,cos all the new frens i made,cos i finally opened up my heart,i see the world differently today.Im wearing my fave pink check shirt,and my fave perfume,it makes me feel so confident,and just so happy,its nice to feel this way,im finally myself again,i wondered why i was wasting time being so depress,and kept complaining bout life,im sorry my dear,i should've been positive and not letting you get frustrated by my complains.
Finally its safe to say,im ready to wait for you,i dont mind the 3 months anymore,i wanna give you the freedom you deserve,dont wanna give you headache anymore,show you how strong i am,and how happy i am,im gonna live my life again.If we're meant to be,i should let you do whatever you wanna do,and when you come back to me,i'll know you're the one for me,i shouldn't hold u back,shouldnt pressured you,should have just waited and be happy for you.
Actually its kinda great that you're not here for 3 months for CNY season,my bro still not able to give more money to mum,and the burdens came straight to me,esp for festive season,everything counts on me.Lucky im able to save alot of money,cos i seldom go out now,was able to help mum lighten up the burden,now i understand why god seperated us for 3 months,see thats how it works.Cause it would kills me to not able to have enough to bring you on nice dates,cause you only deserves the best,you'll always gets the best of me,i just love so much to pamper you,if my money is limited,its just kills me inside to let you accomodate to my proverty,cause i have the responsibilty to make you happy and to provide for you,i love u so much my princess.
Today at work,i was given a very complicated task,i had to do the settlements and checking of sales figures and then i thought i knew how to do it from my past job,i thought it was gonna be easy,but its not at all,its not just 1 counter,but so many to check and count.Big numbers,and lots of money to handle,i was so stressed out,but lucky everything came thru in the end.As i went for toilet break,i came back to the staff room,the lights was off,cause there's no one else,then when i was putting on my bumbag,my fren came in,she stared at me,and asked,why do i looked so emo in the dark,and then she suddenly just tells me that she thinks im really cute and actually very pretty,i was turn off by that,cause i really wish ppl thinks im manly and see me a man figure,cute and pretty just not what i wanna hear.
awww baby,wish you were here to tell me how manly i am,and you would always say the right things to turn me on,and melts me,and make me feel so good about myself,i miss you so much,missed all the rights things you always says to make me feel so good.i miss you cute voice,to hear you praise me with your sweet voice satisfies me like no other.I hope to see you soon online baby,i love you.
