Today i woke up at 6.40 am, working morning shift till 6.30pm, that usually is my fave shift, cos after work i know i can see you. It kills me inside knowing that, today im without you, i dont have a reason to be happy or excited bout morning shift again.
I had a dream today, i dreamt that i was really flying, and really a black bird flew over to see you.I saw you in a rural village there, you were all sad and lonely among a crowd of strangers. I can only watch you from above, wish i could hug you, but you seemed so untouchable,surrounded by all those people. I cried, and my heart was torn apart, i missed you so much, but there's nothing i could do to be close to you, i wished i really had wings to fly over, and look at you all the time.
I woke up with tears in my eyes, knowing its just another dream, your still far apart from me.Finally i dragged myself out for work,while waiting for my train, i stared at my phone, looking at all the messages you had send me, its so painful to read, because i cant reply you, i cant reach you, and i know i'll never get your sms soon. It was so quiet, as if my phone was dead, i had no reason to msg anymore, your not there anymore.
So painful, so lonely, and so empty, but its only the beginning of the count down of days without you, 1 day felt like a year.Its so scary that my life had suddenly became back when i was a loner, single again,it sucks,every msg i got from friends, how i wished was from you, knowing its impossible,i really felt like breaking down and cry, but baby i promised i'll be strong, so i swallowed all my tears.It felt so sour, and painful, and tongue stucked, i couldnt even speak, knowing that tears would just gust out of eyes, and i would lose control.
As i were walking down the street, it was cold, and i couldnt help thinking were you freezing there? Oh how i wished i could hold your hands right now, warm them up with my warm hands the way you like it. I stared at the sky, wondering at the same moment were you staring at the sky too thinking about me.
I wished you'll think of me when you see the stars above the night sky, because i've staring at the sky wondering how you were at afar. We're under the same sky, yet so far apart driven by fate, i had never saw it coming this soon, i thought we had more time. Wished we had went to escape theme park earlier, at least we've been to flyer. Please come back to me sooner, im counting down the days since you been gone, i love you so much. Dont cry too much for me, dont suffer from headache cos of me, i dont wish to see your beautiful eyes all red too, my love.
