Hey baby,i wish i could tell you life has been better and that im happy,but i tried all means,i couldnt,you just stays in head and preventing me to enjoy any part of my life.Im missing you too much,everyday is too painful,i don't know how long more i could take it,everyday im acting,pretending to be happy,tell people im fine,tells people im okay,when im not,at all.
Im not myself anymore,i couldn't be happy at all,i wanna be happy so bad,i really tried opening up my heart to friends,but in no time,i would close them back again,cos im constantly reminded that my baby is not here,i shouldn't be happy,its wrong to even have fun,i should be suffering isn't it,i should live in grief everyday,isn't that right.
Sometimes i wonder were feeling the exact same thing im feeling now,or am the only one thats gone mad.I used to be cheerful,i used to laugh alot,now i dont,just a glum face all day long.i look a far,as if my heart is not there,i look a far,as if waiting for something to happen,waitng for the only girl in my life to come back so i can feel again.
Becuase when you left,you didn't just bought yourself and stuff,you took away the key to my heart too,im unable to feel again since you been gone,you only leave me with pain,tears,agony,sorrows and everlasting grief in my heart.You took away all the reason for me to happy ever again.
Today i had my instant noodles,while sitting across was my colleages,they were chatting happily,i wanted to join in,but i couldn't whenever i want to speak,i just swallowed backed in,i just avoid eye contact,looked down at my food hope the world would just ignores me.I hope you see the changes thats happening to me,and try what ever you can to come back to me soon.
